Because Motherhood is a journey!


Its been so long

Its been so long since I have updated this blog. Our little family has been through some trying times. We like all families out there are really starting to feel the pinch financially. We let the internet go, because it is one of those frivolous things we don't actually need. I dod most of my surfing on my phone anyways. I tried to blog on my phone, I even downloaded an app. It just was to hard to blog on my phone, so I gave it up for a while. I am now going to be able to pick it back up again. I also thing I will be able to do it more often then before. The internet is going to come back into this little home of ours. I have decided to go back to college. I am going to be taking online classes and well you need internet to succeed with that. I am just going for a two year degree. I want to do something a little more marketable, and my interests have changed greatly since I first went. I always thought it was stupid to ask an 18 year old to make such a huge decision about life. I still would do what I originally chose to do, but I would need more schooling to really be marketable in this tough job market. If I am going to pay for it, why not just go do something that suits my personality better? I have worked out a time daily just for myself. I expect that I will be able to blog, read, craft etc. during that time. At night I sit with my son until he falls asleep. Theres a glider in his room and I take the opportunity to do things I enjoy. I sit in that glider long after he falls asleep listening to his little soft snores as I take time to do things just for me. I have really come to appreciate this time. Its a nice way to wind down from a long day with a high needs infant and a chatty five year old. As much as I love spending time with my husband and children it is really nice to have solitude (well as close to it as I can come) every day. Maybe its starting a bad habit for the boy, but a part of me does not care. I cherish this time in his room. It started as a way for me to get him to go to sleep in a calmer manner. After I realized his howls carry well outside of the house I decided something had to change. He WAS falling sleep after only a few minutes of whining, then we moved him to his own room. BIG mistake. His room is so foreign to him and he refuses to sleep in it no matter how pretty the jungle animals on the wall may be. He cried for longer and longer stretches of time every night and started to actually wake a few time a night EVERY night. I really felt like he was regressing back to that scream all night and day newborn. I decided one night to just stay in his room and comfort him. The first few nights I do not think that it cut down on his crying to much and I was pretty discouraged. Eventually he became a lot calmer about sleeping in his room. He now only protests when initially laid down and then plays around a bit before drifting off to sleep in about five minutes time. As I type this right now he is talking in his sleep :) I am glad that we have both found a solution that works well for the both of us. He gets the comfort of having me near, and I get some time that is carved out just for mommy.